Isolation

So I have currently been under quarantine for 11 days. My husband tested posted positive for Covid 19. The day it happened it all seemed so surreal. I could not believe this was happening. I tested negative, whew. But my sweet husband was sick. For three days he slept and I was alone. I had two of our boys but they spent most if their time in their rooms. I did all the right things. Tended to him, (annoyed the crap out of him while he was sleeping) and prayed. I read my bible but not like I needed to. I was scared. Sunday night I had a complete come-apart. I was exhausted because I was not sleeping. My husband was aggravated because I kept checking on him. He has asthma and allergies that put him at risk for complications, so I was scared. I gave into the enemy and I broke. But that it not where I want my focus to be today.

You see it did not end there. The Holy Spirit is so good. He spoke to me in my pain and reminded me of who I am. He whispered hope and love. I did not feel condemned because of my weakness. Today I was watching church online since we can't be there. I was watching our praise and worship team and noticing all the missing people. For just a moment I wondered if I would ever get to see them again. I broke, I cried. I hurt. But then I remembered all the text, phone calls and visits I have had (no they did not come in but dropped off much needed supplies I could not get). I remembered the post of encouragement from my family. Family is so much more than blood. I don't really have any blood related family close by but I am not alone. We have not went without anything we have needed and have had many comforts that some who have battled this virus have not had. I have painted, wrote and had all manner of shows and movies available to be me. Food brought to my door step and meals being  prepared in love for my family by my sweet church family. We may be quarantined but we have not been isolated.

But the greatest of all is the blessed hope I can cling to even in my darkest hours. I will never have to be alone, ever. God will always be there. I may not see my church family this side of heaven but I will see them. I may only sing from my couch but someday I will get to sing before the throne of the Lord God Almighty with all my fellow Christians. Even if. Even if the very worst happens still I will have hope. Even if the whole world explodes around me I will be safe. He holds me in the palm of His hand and He will never let me go. This is but a moment in the eternity that He has promised me. So today I chose to praise. I chose to speak joy and I will persevere. If He can die for me the very least  I can do is live for him. 

11 days down, 12 more to go. Yes 14 days in what quarantine is supposed to be but ours is not. But that is a story for another day.

Troubled

Ok, so I have had this on my mind for a while but wasn't really sure where to put it or how to put into words what I am feeling so if I ramble a bit pardon me. 

The world is in a terrible state. I don't think anyone would argue that fact. Between corona virus, protest and riots and the downfall that is happening in our economy, the world as we know it has changed. There is no normal. People are hurting and dying. But one thing troubles me. The hate. I am bothered by how quickly we turn on each other these days. People I have known my whole life are engaging in heated debates over things that simply don't matter. To mask or not, racist or not and it is only getting worse. To have an opinion contrary to another's is viewed as a personal attack and is not tolerated. It breaks my heart and truthfully has made me a little hesitant to speak out on social media. But that ends today.

Here are my beliefs about the state of the world. 

We live in a fallen world.

Sin is a cancer and our world is dying from it.

It is not going to get better.

Jesus is the only answer to it. 

Satan is throwing a party in these last days.

He is ready and willing to take as many as he can with him to hell.

We are living in the end time and Jesus is coming back.

There are many who have hardened their hearts and truly believe they are right.

God said this would happen and He is always right.

The bible is the word of God from beginning to the end.

If God calls it sin we don't get to correct Him, He is always right.

If you are a Christian you are fighting a spiritual battle whether you want to or not.

If you want to win you must put on your armor and use it.

In order to do this you must know what it is and how it work.

God gives us the operating manual in His word. 

It is your responsibility to read it, not your pastor or Sunday school teacher. 

We must be ready and willing to give our testimony to others.

Every single day we have divine appointments and we are missing them.

Nothing else matters but Jesus.

Not corona, racism, politics.

Nothing. 

Satan is using these as a diversion to keep us from seeing the truth.

He is working in our churches and we are letting him.

Every time we see sin and look the other way he wins. 

We must be bold. 

We must trust God and nothing else.

We must love people the way Jesus did. 

He was never afraid to tell people the truth of their sin.

Who He was and what He could do for them.

He did not stay within the safety of the walls of the church.

He walked among the outcast.

He never cared about status or material comforts.

He only cared about the will of His Father-God.

He died so we don't have to.

He loves us despite our sin.

He took the punishment for it so we don't have to.

We are all unworthy sinners.

Every single one of us.

We were made by Him to worship.

We will worship.

He gives us the ability to choose what.

There is no in between.

You must choose.

God or Satan.

To not choose is to choose Satan.

Only God knows our appointed time of death.

Nothing we do can change it.

We cannot hasten it or extend it. 

Not with a mask or a vaccine.

Sin will never leave this world till He comes back. 

Because of that hatred will always be.

Racism cannot be completely stomped out.

But we as Christians can love.

We have been commanded to.

We are the only light this world has.

We must stop hiding it.

In order to share the truth we must first know it.

The only truth is found in the bible.

The devil is a liar.

He only comes to kill, steal and destroy.

He is destroying our country.

He can only continue if we let him.

Making something legal does not make it ok.

It is still a sin.

Murder is murder no matter the age of the victim.

Sexual immorality is a sin no matter the gender of your partner.

God has a plan for marriage and anything outside of it is a sin.

He is always right.

He is always right.

He is always right.

We cannot change this.

These are my beliefs. I will stand by then till the day I die.